I AM MY OWN KIND OF MAN

There"s always a girl in a pink hat or a yellow dress to remind you of whats really important in life.  Remember this and look for her in the crowd when you get off track or are feeling down.  Anyone can be a girl in a pink hat or a yellow dress, even you.  A mentor of mine says he always wears yellow socks to remind him to live in his joy. That's why I wear a yellow tie. #BGCallan

I am the conductor of my own orchestra.  The orchestra of my life.  I orchestrate space over time; from a single moment to eternity. #BGCallan

The meaning of life is the creation of Truth, or so a friend once told me. There's not anyway you're going to get any proof, living life is faith based only. It's all the same a different day, but you've checked out, you've gone away. You'ld like to believe it's just like Heaven, when Heaven knows you're just living in a Dream. Now Max is gone, but I wrote him this song in hopes that you would understand me. The pain goes away, but I think of him everyday, and he's only one of plenty. I've lost so many brilliant friends, but all things good and bad both must come to an end. I like to think their up there smiling, and somehow their still living in a Dream. I'm doing fine; I've gotten what's mine, but I worry for those around me. You can't save everyone, and that's not very fun, but you can Live the way Life should be. There's beauty and kindness everywhere; the World will beat you down, but you've still got

The black hole "Climbing out of the downward spiral" "Turn your negativity into productivity" Don't be afraid of the dark There is light at the end of the tunnel Convincing yourself how you feel in the moment is so real, it's how you've always felt and are always going to feel.  Don't believe everything you think, but don't believe anything you feel.  Remember, the only constant in life is change.  You've been in this hole before, and you've gotten out every time.  What are you thankful for? Do something on your bucket list.  Remember how sad it is that so many great peoples lives were cut short. What would they tell you? The opposite of destruction is creation. Or as they say in RENT, " the opposite of war isn't peace, it's creation." Creating something will always get you out of a destructive mood.  Don't listen to the tapes: You're not good enough, you'll never make it, you

Eat dessert first. Life happens backwards whether you know it or not. From the mountain top to the hole in one.......  how do you climb a mountain?  First you decide which mountain to climb, then imagine yourself standing on top of it, you walk backwards from the top to where you are right now, and then take your first step forward along the path you already know, to the top, where you already are. A hole in one in golf happens the same way. You will never convince me that it is sheer talent, with wind currents on a planet spinning and traveling through space at over 900 miles per hour. The ball is already in the hole, it flies backwards through the air, lands on the tee, hits your club and knocks it back and you let it swing forward, but this is NOT where you hit the ball. Ok. Ready, set, "waggle."  This is the weird ritual when you wiggle your legs and ass while slightly moving your club back and forth to establish your relationship to the ball. The "waggle" is t

Dedication.  The first person's life this blog has changed is my own.